Eeca Shyaa

Here comes my new post. I've been busy watching Moorim School and had a mental breakdown lately that I have to abandon my blog. Shiada (cute way to say sekda/tidak ada

) mood kamek mok on laptop. But hey, today I wanted to write a little about myself in this Get To Know Me section. It's the only topic yang aku boleh up dalam blog for now.

My Name

I've been using Eeca Shyaa since bila entah. I made it my official name both in the real and virtual world. Bukan official nama dalam IC okay. I create this pseudonym from scrambling my real name and voila, maka terhasil lah nama ini. Reason I have this name sebab I wanted to have the last name. Bila register website memang kena ada ni kan. Kalau website penting je aku letak nama ayah. I know I'm supposed to put his name but yeah... Saja... All my social media guna nama Eeca Shyaa.

My Age

I was born on October 24th, 1993 so I am soon to be 25 years old. 5 years more into 3 series yet I still act like hmm kanak-kanak ribena? I remember our lecturers giving my friends and I that name just because we laugh a lot and sewel and always cheerful. Pemeriah suasana. But when I am alone, I'm dead quiet.

My Birthplace

I was born in Miri Sarawak. Yes, I am a proud Sarawakian! I'm half Malay and half Melanau but I can't speak my mom's language (Melanau). Noob and lembab as they said. I don't know I just don't get it even aku dibesarkan oleh grandparents aku yang always speak in that language. Bebal kali. The only words I know is makau (jalan), keman (makan), sinik (kencing), lasuk (panas), tutang (minum) and badik (bodoh). Heheheheehe.

What I Do For Living

I am jobless. Well, that's what people tend to see. Blergh. I am currently working with my parents. We do eateries. Tak hipster. Kedai makan biasa which the business my dad dah manage for years since I kecik lagi. I was a manning assistant before and aku pernah internship dekat hotel for 3 months after study which that period of time makes me realise I hate working in shift. Not being picky over the job, but I don't do things I don't like or love. Even though working dengan parents, I still wake up at 4 am every day, setting my foot at the shop before 6 am and going back home at 430 pm. I sik goyang kaki di rumah okay. I'm looking for a flexible part time job. Anyone wanna hire me? In need of second job.

My Biggest Fears

First and foremost, I effin' hate spiders. Doesn't matter big or small, spider tetap spider. Tetap banyak kaki. I remember being stuck in the bathroom; paranoid, palpitating, losing my breath, sweating while thinking about how to escape the place without being chased by the spider sebab benda alah tu cun pulak tunggu dekat pintu. Ahh sudah satu-satunya jalan yang ada untuk aku keluar dari bilik mandi dah kena block! Seriously I was damn scared af and I got no weapon to smash it. Gila.

Second, aku takut tinggi. My fear of height is not a joke okay. Even turun dari escalator pun kadang aku cuak. Tapi sejak aku start aktiviti hiking, aku rasa aku dah boleh overcome sikit dengan gayat ni. Sikit laa. Anxiety tetap ada.

Third... Akan diupdate..

Anxiety Is My Best Friend

Well, tak semua orang faham tentang anxiety ni. Bukan mengada but I was born this way. Anxiety people tend to worry and get nervous a lot tak kisah lah tentang apa sekalipun. When I was about to join hiking, I had too much in mind; what if I fall? What if I can't do it? So many what-if question lah. When N told me about meeting his mom and invite me to his family event, I keep asking myself how do I make conversation, how this, how that, what if eh semualah.

Ada masa bila aku jalan sorang dekat tempat ramai orang, my heart will beat rapidly, I sweat much on palm and feet, and aku akan rasa sesak nafas. I feel like everyone is looking at me padahal orang tak kisah langsung dengan kewujudan aku pun. Yes, that is how anxiety feels like. Bukan senang k. It's a real struggle.

Relationship Status

I'm currently dating someone whom I know from Tinder. Ciaciacia. It's been 3 months something already since we know each other and yeah everything is so far so good for now. He's living in the same town and much older than me but not really that old lah. Still young at heart bah. I never posted any of his photos nor me talking about my relationship. Only my close friends know about it cause it's confidential. Hiks.

Things for sure he's not someone's husband or someone's fiance lol. Jangan jadi spesies husna ok. Two things about him; he loves to tease me, and making surprise. Not that here-this-is-a-gift-for-you surprise but more to his "existence" surprise. Suka datang kedey tapi sik padah. Haha.

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Get To Know Me will be continued in part two. Kalau nak letak semua point dalam satu entri nanti bebuih pulak korang baca. This gonna be an interesting post. Why don't you try it too? Well, just in case if you have nothing to write. I'm curious to know yours as well!!

Do you have anxiety? What's Your Biggest Fears? Do let me know!

Till here then. x

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September, 12th. What was the last compliment you were given?

Can I take people judging my body weight as a compliment? I heard them a lot rather than something else. Jarang kenak puji bah. Olakaseh.

I gain weight. Believe it or not, I gain 5kg within one month.

I don't know if I eat a dinosaur or I eat like a dinosaur.

My cousins said I'm fat again. Even my dad pun cakap benda sama. Sobs.

Rasanya berat badan naik mendadak sebab lepas balik dari Korea hari tu, aku memang hepi je memuaskan nafsu makan tanpa ada rasa penyesalan. 2 bulan di Korea macam-macam benda aku craving. Nasi lemak, ketupat, kuah satay, ayam goreng mekdi eh semualah. Cun pulak masa tu dah mula bulan puasa dan seterusnya raya. FOODS EVERYWHERE. Ne sik begasak aku makan.

Lepas ada beberapa orang hamba allah cakap aku dah gemuk balik, aku mula rasa agak down sikit. Marah dengan diri sendiri kenapaaaaaa makan banyak sangat?! Nak buang lemak tu bukan senang ya awloh. Sedih. Dahlah aku jenis yang cepat naik berat badan.

Lately ni aku try eat clean dan tak makan nasi walaupun kadang tu ada cheat day banyak kali. Duhh. Foodie kau suruh diet memang susahlah. Tapi aku try hard untuk tak ambik makanan berat. Air putih aku konsisten setiap hari. Tapi berat aku maintain tak kurang langsung. LANGSUNG. Not even 1kg. I did go jogging as well. Pun sik ngasi. Bila dah plan nak pergi hiking, cuaca pulak tak mengizinkan. Nak suruh aku stay gemuk lettewww.

Bila aku eat clean, ada pula makhluk yang buat sakit hati sindir macam-macam. Ahh pedulilah. Malas tah ku ingau. I'm just going to embrace myself and do things in my own way. Slow but in progress gitewww. Hari ni aku makan breakfast sihat. Makan 2 keping chicken ham dengan telur rebus dua biji.

Tapi...

Start pukul 9 aku dah lapar. My appetite gone crazy. Please blame the menstrual week! Sebelum aku mood swing for the whole day, I stuffed myself with karipap 3 biji, tumpik (lempeng pusuk bawang cecah gula), cornbeef goreng, mee goreng, my homemade charsiew chicken dan cucur udang! Hehehe.

I blame myself and foods for making my body weight naik dengan bahagianya. Biarlah orang nak cakap apa. Aku anggap jelah itu adalah satu pujian dan akan terima dengan hati terbuka. Walaupun ehem dalam hati aduh sakitnya tuh disini.